Love is not some fuzzy feeling in your stomach. That is infatuation. And it's not the warm emotion radiating from your heart or mind. That's a feeling and feelings can be unstable.

Love is keeping quiet when your spouse says something that embarrasses you in front of a room full of people. It's not retaliating or holding resentment. It's being humble and mindful of the fullness of what you have been given in that spouse.


..overheard from someone at the eye doctor..

Overheard on the radio..and oh so true.

Friends are not square pictures on the side of your facebook page.
And conversations are not how fast you can type on your phone.

I like when people can still hold nitty gritty social habits and actually have some accountability.

I had the best birthday ever. I had great company. And I got gifts from my b.f. that actually suit me. All of them seemed exactly on my level and very well thought out. I had the impression that men never get women well thought out gifts. Apparently i was wrong. Either that or he is a good last minute gifter. But I think he just kinda knows what I would like and still kept it simple. Which is what I like. The most awesome thing was that I got a pandora charm..after all the other gifts. Totally fooled while I was fixing my hair. A sly smile and a little pandora charm box. He gets me every time. So charming.

I greatly dislike my bookshelf that resides in my apartment. I have loathed it ever since I received it as a gift on Christmas several years ago. Really who gives a girl a freaking unpainted bookshelf for Christmas? It's a terrible present. I was angry but of course you can't act angry when people give you presents. So I just gritted my teeth and painted that stinking bookshelf. P.s. I suck at painting. And I have toted that bookshelf all around to my different homes for like four years. However now I have had the urge to just set the thing on fire (don't worry I would take it outside first). It's just a bookshelf. I don't know why I dislike it so much. Mostly I think it has to do with that fact that it's this big piece of furniture with negative feelings surrounding it stuck directly in the middle of my nice new positive life...and I just want to get rid of all the old stuff (i/e people, places, feelings, things..even if that includes a poorly painted bookshelf).
Maybe I could just repaint it. Ahh thus my indecisive self comes in...what color would i choose...

In church today I learned that Love is the most important thing in life. Nothing else matters. So just love.

However, I also learned (and this is in the scripture) that Satan seeks our Hearts. That is why we feel so conflicted between things sometimes.
Between light and darkness/good and bad/temptations and purity.
God owns your soul and wants your heart. But it's your responsibility to be a christian and fight for you Heart b/c certain things will always be trying to steal your heart from God. So seek light but know that people love evil and darkness. And do not get discouraged if your light is constantly being challenged by others around you. The path to light is narrow. The road to darkness is wide.

Satan himself masquerades as an angel of light. He does this just to trick you. And it will test your true discipline and character.

Burdens and pains will keep you back from your life. and nothing and no one can make it right. only yourself and forgiveness. now if only I could live and let live.

I am pretty sure I miss that light of my world already. And it only went out an hour ago. Or really the conversation started about three hours ago, but it was exhausting and bad and we are new and so I can't be certain what exactly went on but what I do know is that I am not the light in his life. And I don't blame him. But hell he swore up and down that he was the person. What a let down. Of course I lost more faith in the humanity of people and the goodness in me. But mostly I think I will miss him. He was kind of all encompassing tenderness.

“You are the light of the world - like a city on a hilltop that cannot be hidden.”

Matthew 5:14