In church today I learned that Love is the most important thing in life. Nothing else matters. So just love.

However, I also learned (and this is in the scripture) that Satan seeks our Hearts. That is why we feel so conflicted between things sometimes.
Between light and darkness/good and bad/temptations and purity.
God owns your soul and wants your heart. But it's your responsibility to be a christian and fight for you Heart b/c certain things will always be trying to steal your heart from God. So seek light but know that people love evil and darkness. And do not get discouraged if your light is constantly being challenged by others around you. The path to light is narrow. The road to darkness is wide.

Satan himself masquerades as an angel of light. He does this just to trick you. And it will test your true discipline and character.

Burdens and pains will keep you back from your life. and nothing and no one can make it right. only yourself and forgiveness. now if only I could live and let live.

I am pretty sure I miss that light of my world already. And it only went out an hour ago. Or really the conversation started about three hours ago, but it was exhausting and bad and we are new and so I can't be certain what exactly went on but what I do know is that I am not the light in his life. And I don't blame him. But hell he swore up and down that he was the person. What a let down. Of course I lost more faith in the humanity of people and the goodness in me. But mostly I think I will miss him. He was kind of all encompassing tenderness.

“You are the light of the world - like a city on a hilltop that cannot be hidden.”

Matthew 5:14

Happy Birthday Ashleigh

Happy Quarter of Century to my absolute favorite red head. And that's not because she is my only red headed friend...or because when I first met her my sole purpose in befriending her was because she had long red hair..she really is my favorite red head. I mean it's hard to find pretty red heads. And she is gorgeous so I just had to know her. It just so happened that once I got to know her she had a fantastically fun personality with the charm of a southern belle and the drive of a bull. Plus she makes me laugh. And she listens. To everything.


And that's her just chatting and smiling on the phone. So cute ;) She will probably want to kill me posting this photo. Bahhahahaha Happy 25th!

Taylor Swift Tickets are in the bag! She completes me.
I won't have to pay for them on ebay. The most wonderful husband bought two sets for Caroline and I. Yes he is that awesome!!! He got tickets to both the Charlotte show and Greensboro :) No he isn't my husband. He belongs to Caroline. But Gosh I am so thankful he is crafty and quick in his online ticket purchasing skills, because I would just die without Taylor Swift tickets.

Last year I did get see the T Swift concert but in all honesty I didn't buy them on ticketmaster. I tried to but they sold out in 2 minutes. So I was devastated when I clicked through and couldn't get tickets. It said "sorry sold out" literally just as soon as they went on sale. I moped around for about 4 months thinking I wasn't going to get to see Taylor. Until...gifter face bought them for me on Ebay.

So thankfully since I don't have loads of money to buy them on ebay, I got smarter. I joined the fan club to know when the pre sale tickets go on sale. And I got lucky because I have a super awesome friend (Caroline) who is married to a man (Adam) that knows our love for Taylor and he sat on his computer while at work (because I can't get on while I'm at work) and typed in the fan club code at pre sale ticket time and bam got us tickets!!!

Ahhh Love. I love my friends and of course Taylor Swift.

I drove to Wilmington today for a baby shower. And oh gosh as soon as I saw that water I ached to live there again. Actually as soon as I get into Wilmington I dread driving back to Raleigh. Wilmington is so familiar. I just don't like Raleigh, never have. Something about the daily grind. And I am an ocean girl. I like the air, the breeze, the sun across the water. I like all the different runs I know through Wilmington, Wrightsville Beach, and Carolina Beach. Memories of all the beautiful times. I even like the people in Wilmington better. Everyone is much nicer and more laid back at the beach. I think that is why I avoid going back to visit..because everytime I do I just hate hate hate driving back to Raleigh. And I already miss Wilmington so badly so it just rubs salt in the wound to visit just for a day but never get to stay.

But today when I came home to Raleigh, I had flowers waiting for me, so that made coming home better ;)

The way you move is like a full on rainstorm
And I'm a house of cards
That should send me runnin'
But I kinda know that I won't get far
And you stood there in front of me
Just close enough to touch
Close enough to hope you couldn't see
What I was thinking of

Drop everything now
Meet me in the pouring rain
Kiss me on the sidewalk
Take away the pain
'cause I see sparks fly whenever you smile
Get me with those green eyes, baby, as the lights go down
Give me something that'll haunt me when you're not around
'cause I see sparks fly whenever you smile

My mind forgets to remind me
You're a bad idea
You touch me once and it's really something,
You find I'm even better than you imagined I would be.
I'm on my guard for the rest of the world
But with you I know it's no good

--Taylor Swift (Sparks Fly)